Dear I, Where Are You?

寻找迷失的自我

“Not until we are lost do we begin to understandourselves.” ~Henry David Thoreau

迷失自我，才能发现自我。——亨利·大卫·梭罗(美国作家及自然主义者)

Everything about my future was ambiguously assumed. I would get into debt by going to college,then I would be forced to get a job to pay off that debt, while still getting into more and more debtby buying a house and a car. It seemed like a never-ending cycle that had no place for thepossibility of a dream.

我们未来的一切似乎都模糊地设定好了，利用贷款上大学，然后为了还债被迫去找一份工作，还要为了买房买车背负更多的债务……这仿佛是一个无休止的循环，让我们的梦想没有实现的机会。

I want more—but not necessarily in the material sense of personal wealth and success. I want moreout of life. I want a passion, a conceptual dream that wouldn’t let me sleep out of pure excitement.I want to spring out of bed in the morning, rain or shine, and have that zest for life that seemed sointrinsic in early childhood.

我们想要的更多——并不是对于个人财富和成功等物质性需求，我们对于生活，想要更多。我想要热忱、有概念的梦想，让我不会空怀纯粹的兴奋入睡。我希望能在早晨一跃起床，无论是阳光普照还是刮风下雨，也能对生活充满热情，就像我们的童年时固有的一样。

We all have a dream. It might be explicitly defined or just a vague idea, but most of us are so stuckin the muck of insecurity and self-doubt that we just dismiss it as unrealistic or too difficult topursue.

我们都有梦想，无论它是明确的目标还是模糊的主意，但我们大多数人都受困于不安全和自我怀疑的泥泞里，我们把梦想看做是不现实的、难以追求的，最后放弃了。

We become so comfortable with the life that has been planned out for us by our parents,teachers, traditions, and societal norms that we feel that it’s stupid and unsafe to risk losing it forthe small hope of achieving something that is more fulfilling.

我们变得满足于父母、老师、传统及社会规条为我们营造的安逸生活。为了那一点点能够为生活变得更充实的希望去冒险，我们会认为这是愚蠢和危险的。

“The policy of being too cautious is the greatest risk of all.” ~Jawaharlal Nehru

过于谨慎才是最大的危险——贾瓦哈拉尔·尼赫鲁(印度开国总理)

Taking a risk is still a risk. We can, and will, fail. Possibly many, many, many times. But that is whatmakes it exciting for me. That uncertainty can be viewed negatively, or it can empower us.

冒险始终还是有风险。我们，也有可能失败，还有可能是失败很多很多次。但这会让我们更加兴奋。不确定因素看起来有不利，但同时也能激励我们。

Failing is what makes us grow, it makes us stronger and more resilient to the aspects of life wehave no control over. The fear of failure, although, is what makes us stagnant and sad. So eventhough I couldn’t see the future as clearly as before, I took the plunge in hopes that in the depthsof fear and failure, I would come out feeling more alive than ever before.

失败能让我们成长，让我们更强大，让我们更能适应生活中难以控制的各个方面。对于失败的恐惧，让我们停滞不前，悲伤不已。尽管不能清晰地看见未来，在恐惧和失败的深渊里，我们也要保持希望，那么我们将活得更有生命力。

If you feel lost, just take a deep breath and realize that being lost can be turning point of findingout who you truly are, and what you truly want to do.

如果你迷失了自我，请深呼吸，迷失或许能成为你人生的转折点，让你发现真正的自己，并让你知道自己想真正成为怎样的人。